It is over!!!!!!!!

So it is over......it is over....and he didn't even care. He didn't even care. Sometimes I wonder if being with me is that awful. People leave and they don't even care. No one cares........ I think that is the part that hurts so much. I give and give. Lord..........I wish this will end. It is partly my fault. Actually it is totally my fault. I see how these things are going to end before they even begin. But the question that I have is why me. Why me? Why me? I generally mind my own business. I don't seek anyone out and I don't intentionally set out to hurt people. Why does this always happen to me. Gosh I was just minding my business...I didn't go out to meet anyone that night. But I met him and I liked him. I knew it was wrong. But it felt right. I thought we had a connection. But it is dangerous. He is with someone else. Where will that lead me, I asked....probably alone....So I keep my distance....Trying to keep things "approriate" But I didn't...I got weak....It was my fault....Today I tried to end it..........and all he can say is ok.......Ok.....like tomorrow he is not even going to care or think about me. His life is going to go on. He is still going to have what he loves...............and that leads back where I started....actually worst....because I have been hurt........What have I learned about this.....There has to be a moral in this fable.........I think that I see it. I have learned. I am going to make different choice in my next relationship. I need to make a change...........UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am so tired of Love and Relationships............ :-(